She gives me love

I love my daughter, a deep abiding love that makes my day happy. She always finds new ways to enchant, delight and surprise me. This morning she woke up first and sat in bed babbling and shrieking away until Nav and I both woke up to talk to her. We always give her a big kiss on each cheek and this morning she took our faces and pulled them together so that we would kiss and she just laughed and clapped as though it were the best thing in the world for her. As most children will do, she wanted to do it again and again and again. We were happy to oblige her; she was enjoying herself immensely especially if we made a big smacking sound at the end. That was the perfect way to start my day.


Then I arrived at work. YIKES!! Working in timeshare can be quite brain consuming dealing with intervals, fractional ownerships and irate owners but we usually don’t reach peak volume until the summer months. Not this year. We’ve been bombarded with people from the word giddy up and I don’t want to see call volume come the summer. Maternity leave is slated for June – September and I lauded it over my co workers that I would miss the bulk of the craziness but alas, we make plans and God laughs.

Book 6/50

Dodge the Bullet by Christy Hayes


My rating: 4 of 5 stars


This book was a Kindle freebie that I enjoyed. I always go into the freebies with lowered expectations because well, they're free and most likely self published. There are a few typos (approx. 20) but not enough to distract the reader. The story over all, well written, grammatically correct, thought out and is very straight forward in the romance department.




I'm an admitted romance novel fan so my review comes from that stand point, if someone generally does not read romance they will be turned off. My only complaints with the story line were the additions of Lyle and Kevin's viewpoint coming out of left field. I think the book dragged longer than necessary and could have been about 3-4 chapters shorter. Also Dodge's back-story could have been beefed up, I felt that it fell very flat and was not enough for the entire town to hold so much hostility towards him.






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Week 20 Questionnaire

How Far Along? 20 weeks 5 days
Symptoms: Exhaustion due to anemia

Total Weight Gain/Loss: 5.6 lbs
Sleep: Getting better but not what I would like it to be
Food Cravings: Milk, strawberries and apples

Best Moment This Week: Hearing your heartbeat and knowing that you were OK!
Movement: TONS oh man you are the karate kid

Labor Signs: NONE NONE NONE!!!!!!!!!! We want term, no baby until week 38

Gender: Mama’s baby boy <3

Belly Button In Or Out? Still looking like Kyle XY

What I Miss: The naive bliss of a presumed healthy pregnancy

What I Am Looking Forward To: Seeing your god mommy Ro in Miami!
Milestones: This week we are at the “half way” to term mark! Good job baking baby boy
Weekly Wisdom: Eat healthy early and it makes life SO much easier later

Day One of 17p

Waiting on pins and needles at the doctor's office to get my shot. I didn't ice my bum as everyone suggested who has done the shots already. I pray I don't regret that decision.

Book 5/50

A Previous Engagement by Stephanie Haddad


My rating: 3 of 5 stars


This was a quick and funny chick lit romance read. Don't go in expecting great literary truths, grab some wine or comfort food and prepare to laugh and shake your head at the characters.




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Book 4/50

And Then There Were None by Agatha Christie


My rating: 5 of 5 stars


I originally read this book in grade school and remembered enjoying but wanted to reread with an 'adult' understanding since I knew a lot of the themes went right over my head.




Boy was I right! This is a great book and left me up many nights until the wee hours 'just to finish one more chapter'




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Pumpkin 19 Week Update

Tumbleweeds have been rolling through in recent weeks as I’ve dealt my personal depression and anxiety with this pregnancy. You know those wonderful people who can think positive and look for the good in all situations; I’m not one of them. I’m the ‘expect the worse and be happy when it’s good news’ type of person. With a few miscarriages and a preemie under my belt, I don’t hold pregnancy in high regards. It scares the living daylights out of me and turns me into a nervous wreck. With Stuffing, I was petrified up until we passed the 10 week mark and she was healthy and alien blob looking with a beating heart. Even up until the second trimester I did not have the blissful ignorance of first time pregnancy because I knew that miscarriages can and will come at any time. Then the 29 week emergency cesarean section and the discovery of my bicornuate uterus and a lot fell into place but my visage of ignorance fell away and I knew just how scary and how wrong pregnancy can go.


With Pumpkin, my emotions and have run the gamut, from YAHOO! I’m so excited to sitting in my bathroom at work crying my eyes because I am so scared. Terrified beyond belief is a more apt description. I try to keep my anxiety as low as possible and work hard at concentrating on the good. The more stressed out I make myself the less hospitable his stay in my womb will be. He does seem to be enjoying his stay and I hope he continues to make it his home until we hit the 38 week mark. At 19 weeks he is already much larger than his sister at her 20 week anatomy scan (where she measured only 17 weeks and the OB brushed me off when I questioned it) and seems to be doing quite well for himself in there. The placenta is currently sitting on top of him so movements are soft dull thuds but any movement is a big reassurance for me.

We had our second high risk appointment yesterday and growth is good, heart rate was right on target, and he was hungry and stubborn. We had to move him by jiggling my belly quite a few times but they were able to get all of the necessary measurements. It gave me a big boost to see him healthy and happy in there and motivation to get through this week. I was told in no uncertain terms that a VBAC is not possible and a second cesarean is the order of the day but overall they felt positive this pregnancy is on the right track and are trying very hard to get my 17P shots ordered immediately.

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Week 18 Questionnaire

How Far Along? 18 weeks 3 day

Symptoms: anxiety and depression

Total Weight Gain/Loss: Only up to 148.5

Sleep: Still waking often

Food Cravings: fish, oatmeal, apples

Best Moment This Week: Looking at you on the 3D/4D scan <3

Movement: flutters and you balling up

Labor Signs: NONE NONE NONE!!!!!!!!!! We want term, no baby until week 38

Gender: Definitely boy

Belly Button In Or Out? I now look like an alien, my belly button blends into my stomach.

What I Miss: The naive bliss of a presumed healthy pregnancy

What I Am Looking Forward To: growth ultrasound on the 13th

Milestones: you're boy parts are developed

Weekly Wisdom: Being pregnant after a prior traumatic pregnancy/delivery wreaks havoc on you emotions :(

Book 3/50

Hidden Summit by Robyn Carr

My rating: 4 of 5 stars


This is a solid 3.6-4 star book. I did have to detract for the repetitive sex segments. Robyn manages once again to concentrate on her main characters developing romance but including enough interaction from our Virgin River favorites. I enjoyed Leslie's friendship with the neighbors closest to her and her introduction to the town. Glad also she didn't end up pregnant half way through the book like so many VR heroines prior to her.



I do wish we didn't have to read so much about her divorce or dippy husband but overall if you're a VR fan you will enjoy.



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Book 2/50

Best Friends and Bastards by Jaci Byrne


My rating: 3 of 5 stars


Quick and easy beach read! I had a lot of laugh out loud moments, would definitely recommend.




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